Chapter 51
\nIn My Desperate Time novel Chapter 51<\/p>\n
Frances Louis is standing there, watching me quietly.<\/p>\n
His eyes are cold, without any expression, but I still feel guilty.<\/p>\n
I always feel like a woman caught in bed by her husband.<\/p>\n
But it’s my relationship with him that’s unpresentable.<\/p>\n
I think, what should I do if Frances Louis comes over at this moment? If Noah Jefferson knows about my relationship with Frances Louis, I would feel embarrassed in front of him for the rest of my life.<\/p>\n
\u201cJane Noyes.\u201d<\/p>\n
Seeing me don\u2019t answer him, Noah Jefferson urges me again.<\/p>\n
I know he is waiting for my response.<\/p>\n
If there is a ray of white moonlight in everyone’s heart, Noah Jefferson is the irreplaceable in my heart. It never occurs to me that the person I hide in my heart is liking me the same way.<\/p>\n
If I had known this, if I can be brave then, maybe now, everything would be different.<\/p>\n
But now, I don\u2019t know how to answer him.<\/p>\n
How could I dare to respond to the feelings of Noah Jefferson when I could not see my own future?<\/p>\n
And the presence of Frances Louis makes me even more nervous.<\/p>\n
Fortunately, Frances Louis only looks at me for a few seconds and then gets into the car. I am relieved to see the car fly away.<\/p>\n
All the while, Noah Jefferson looks at me so tenderly that it almost melts me.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy haven\u2019t you come in? Come in and flirt!\u201d<\/p>\n
Seeing we stand outside, the second-generation rich boy comes out and calls us in.<\/p>\n
Feeling like I am grasping at a life-saving straw, I say to Noah Jefferson, \u201cLet\u2019s come in first.\u201d<\/p>\n
Like I thought, he doesn\u2019t have time to talk about it after we get inside.<\/p>\n
During the whole process, everyone is singing and playing games and the whole room is noisy. Naturally, that topic couldn\u2019t have a chance to be continued.<\/p>\n
But Noah Jefferson\u2019s words reverberate in my mind. They touch my soft heart again and again.<\/p>\n
\u201cJane Noyes, I like you.\u201d<\/p>\n
The whole time, Noah Jefferson’s eyes are locked on me.<\/p>\n
The crowd also see the difference between us and boo, \u201cNoah Jefferson, if you lover her, just get her! Anyway, she is single, don\u2019t be a coward! Just take her home tonight and make a baby! everything will be easy!\u201d<\/p>\n
My face blushes at once. My eyes dodge and I don’t know what to say.<\/p>\n
It is Fountain who is speaking. We were good friends in high school, but does she mean to embarrass me by saying that now?<\/p>\n
\u201cI will leave if you make any jokes.\u201d Noah Jefferson says lightly. Hearing what he says, people lost the fun and go on playing.<\/p>\n
It looks like they’re staying up all night. At about ten o ‘clock, I get up and want to go.<\/p>\n
Frances Louis doesn\u2019t like me going home too late. He catches me at such a scene tonight. I feel a little guilty. It is better for me to go home early.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy go home so early? You are single now and there would be no husband to blame you. Come on, stay and enjoy your life.\u201d Joy, the commissary in charge of sports in high school, says.<\/p>\n
\u201cI have to go to work tomorrow. I am divorced and no one feed me. If I am late, someone would deduct my wages.\u201d<\/p>\n
No man has ever loved me so much like him.<\/p>\n
But in the end reason trumps impulse.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut I care. Noah Jefferson, you’re probably drunk and impulsive. We haven’t seen each other for so many years. You may have misunderstood your feelings for me. Maybe you don’t like me as much as you thought. Let\u2019s talk about it when you are sober.\u201d<\/p>\n
A taxi pulls up to the road and I get in and close the door.<\/p>\n
A pang of bitterness rushes into my heart.<\/p>\n
God knows how much I want to jump into the arms of Noah Jefferson and let this man shelter me.<\/p>\n
But between him and me, there is Andrew Malan, and then a Frances Louis, we are far apart and a short distance away.<\/p>\n
The car drives to Louis\u2019s house. I get off but don\u2019t dare to go in.<\/p>\n
I stand downstairs for almost ten minutes and my waist hurts.<\/p>\n
Damn it. Let me die!<\/p>\n
I inhale deeply, take up my courage and go in.<\/p>\n
The light in Frances Louis’ room is off. Perhaps he is asleep.<\/p>\n
Relieved, I creep upstairs.<\/p>\n
Just as I enter the room and close the door, the cold voice of Frances Louis comes behind me.<\/p>\n
\u201cHave fun?\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"template":"","class_list":["post-75","chapter","type-chapter","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/icuow.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/chapter\/75","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/icuow.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/chapter"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/icuow.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/chapter"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/icuow.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=75"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}