Chapter 197
\nIn My Desperate Time novel Chapter 197<\/p>\n
Noah murmurs after looking at me in disbelief for a long time, “Jane, what are you talking about?”<\/p>\n
He looks devastated.<\/p>\n
I can\u2019t stand to say anything hurtful. And I almost fail to say the next words.<\/p>\n
But I know that this may be my last chance to say it.<\/p>\n
“I have to tell you very clearly that things between us doesn\u2019t work. There are too many people stopping us from being together. Your parents, Frances, and the past that I don\u2019t want to mention anymore. I don\u2019t deserve you. I will hurt you. You are too good be ruined by me. The most important thing is, I don\u2019t love you, Noah.\u201d<\/p>\n
I feel a touch of sadness in my heart when I say it out loud.<\/p>\n
I used to believe that I would never forget my first love. I would keep him in mind for the rest of my life. But he is gradually being washed away. I don’t know if it is because of the cruelty of time, or another person is taking over his place in my heart.<\/p>\n
Noah takes two steps back, squeezing words from his throat with difficulty.<\/p>\n
“You don\u2019t love me anymore? Are you in love with him?”<\/p>\n
He is not stupid. He is able to see through some things, but he is reluctant to face it. I know that he must have seen some clues judging from his escape in the past few days.<\/p>\n
I give tacit consent to him by not saying a word.<\/p>\n
I cannot deny the love for Frances. I fall in love with him and love him incorrigibly.<\/p>\n
“I understand.” Noah sounds almost like he is choking. “Since this is your choice, I don’t want to force you. But I believe you also know that I really love you, Jane. I hope you can live a happy life. A man like Frances is not suitable for you at all. One day, he will leave you and turn to another woman. But I promise, you can come to me whenever he leaves you. I will never compromise if I am not married to you. I will always wait for you until the day I die.”<\/p>\n
Just then tears fall.<\/p>\n
Looking at the handsome man in front of me, I feel devastated.<\/p>\n
It may be guilt. It may be I am moved by him. Or it may be helplessness towards life.<\/p>\n
I can\u2019t stop crying.<\/p>\n
Noah comes over and hugs me gently. He is probably afraid of my rejection, so his hug is very tender. But it gives me a sense of warm support.<\/p>\n
“Thank you, Noah.” I sob.<\/p>\n
I trust in him unconditionally. But sharing the bed with him is still too difficult for me.<\/p>\n
“This is my last request, Jane.” He says pleadingly.<\/p>\n
I really don’t know how to refuse him so I can only nod and agree.<\/p>\n
We enter the room together. Just then, Nicole calls me and tells me that she wants to discuss something with me.<\/p>\n
I ask Noah to go to bed without waiting up. Knowing that he is in the room, I did not close the door.<\/p>\n
Nicole tells me about a lot of her ideas. She wants to visit some luxury brand stores in Paris to find inspiration with me tomorrow.<\/p>\n
I agree and make an appointment with her. Then I walk towards my room.<\/p>\n
When I get to the door, I vaguely feel something is wrong.<\/p>\n
I open the door nervously. When I see the scene inside and I am shocked.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"template":"","class_list":["post-221","chapter","type-chapter","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/icuow.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/chapter\/221","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/icuow.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/chapter"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/icuow.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/chapter"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/icuow.top\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=221"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}